Screwed up, but getting back on track

Date: 05/08/10
Time: 9:45pm
Weight: 55kg

It's almost been a week since I have last updates, sorry. Well today I have eaten, 1 potato and meat pie with sauce, 1 cheese burger from McDonald's, 2 tomato cuppa soups and a small plate of rice... I know I stuffed up today, but I will try harder, these things come with patience.
ummmm.. I haven't been doing that great lately.. eating some junk food here and there.. I am most likely going to start my liquids only fast again next Thursday (pay day) and until then I guess just eat as little as I can. No lollies or fast food! Fast food is my weakness, but as they say "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels", And that saying is true, when I look in the mirror and see that I am just that little bit smaller, it's amazing! feels so much better than going out and eating gross fatty food that clogs your arteries. I really want to try the fruit and milk fast too, but again, that will have to wait untill pay day, so I might do that for as long as I can starting from Thursday :) I know I can do this, I WILL be beautiful and thin for summer, I WILL have a lovely flat stomach that everyone will be jealous of! Its all about control. I can't wait to buy some new SMALLER size swimmers and go tanning at the beach when it gets hotter :D
I will upload a photo of my body now (don't mind my tan line, looks a bit weird at the moment) and then hopefully in a couple of weeks I can see some more change :) Stay strong guys! remember, do not give up on what you want the most for what you want at the moment.

Liquid fast completed

Date: 26/07/10
Time: 1:26pm
Weight: Unknown

Hmmmm well I haven't updated in a while due to being away from the internet. I completed a 3 day liquids fast and i lost 4-5kg, although right after I had finished I had fast food the next two nights.. So I am not to happy about that at all. Starting again trying to liquid fast as long as I can, although I have to go out for dinner on Thursday so I'll just have to not eat and exercise a lot until then :) I ran nearly 3km the other night with my friend (after I ate KFC).. I am going to try and go for a walk today for at least an hour or so depending on how I feel and also some sit ups and maybe go skip :) I am extremely hungry right now, I have a couple of soups in the house to last me till pay day. I also want to buy this meal replacement drink called MYOPLEX LITE, it seems like an interesting product and it has a lot of good reviews. Again I am aiming for under 500cal today at least, an hour of walking/jogging, and to keep my mind occupied. Also might make a thinspiration book and fill it up with tips and photos.

Fasts I want to try:
(The milk and fruit fast: 3x a day, a glass of milk, raw fruit and water)
(Green tea fast)
(Juice fast)
(Water fast)
(vegetable fast)


Here are 3 of my favorite tips that have worked for me.

1. If you are about to binge, pick a safe food, preferably negative calorie (pickles, celery, blueberries, etc.) and eat it non-stop for up to half an hour, taking a sip of water with each bite. Often you will not be able to even get up to half an hour, and you will be full so the desire to binge will be gone, but you haven't eaten anything "bad.

2. Eat low-calorie foods with very intense flavors. Often times you just crave taste. Chili peppers, anything pickled, peppermints, and very concentrated bullion (make it with half the water recommended) are all good options

3.Drink water! This is the #1 rule for ana. It fills you up when you are hungry
The general rule is also that hot water fills you up more and ice cold water helps you to burn more calories since it lowers your body temperature so your body has to work harder to stay warm.

Update

Date: 22/07/10
Time: 1:58pm
Weight: 54.5kg

Well today I am feeling a bit better after having a long sleep, I am not that hungry and Probably will just pack a soup and a up and go to take to my friends house tonight. I am getting my energy in little spurts sometimes im really low and want to give up, and other times I want to make this liquid fast go for longer. It finishes tonight at 12pm, depending on how I feel, I might go for longer :)
anyway this was just a quick update, I'm getting picked up now to go to my friends, hopefully I don't binge!

Day 2 of my liquid fast.

Date: 21/07/10
Time: 10:47pm
Weight: 55kg

So today is the second day of my liquid only fast. I ate 2 cuppa soups, a small 70 cal yogurt and a small cup of chicken noodle soup. I also bought some antacid because I find this stops my hunger pains a lot, so I had 2 of them. I'm feeling a bit depressed lately.. like I just want to give up.. I crave a big Mcdonalds meal so badly, or even just a baked dinner! I love cooking and I love food. I don't know how long i can keep this liquid fast up, maybe just till tomorrow night, so then it's 3 days. My stomach looks slimmer and I guess I'm some what happy with that, thing is I have to have a slimmer body by the end of 2 weeks because I'm going on an outing with my friends and I want to look my best. I'm not sure what diet or fast I'll do after this liquid fast, maybe something like the 2468 diet, or just fruit and vegetables. I am going to try my hardest to go for a run tomorrow at some stage, then I'm going to visit my friend and stay at hers the night she doesn't eat that healthy so I don't know how I am going to go staying there. I have started to look at overweight people in the up most of disgust.. how can they let their bodies get that way? I can't let myself be like that. Things are changing about the way I see everything.. I want the perfect body, don't we all, but I'm prepared to do anything for it. I'm getting so sick of soup & liquids, I just want to eat real food.. well as you can probably pick up, I'm not feeling too great, I'm really tired and just in a shitty mood. I am extremely determined to make it to the end of day 3 for my liquid fast, that would be one of my goals crossed off, then maybe next time I will fast for longer.

My fave thinspiration photos.

Introduction

Date: 21/07/10
Time: 12:32am
Weight: 56kg

Hey guys, I'm Missy (not my real name) I currently weigh 56-61kg and my goal weight is to be 50kg or 45ish. I am 165cm tall and I am 18 years old. I have just started my liquids only fast, consuming only liquid such as soup, water, any kind of liquid low in calories really. I used to eat a normal sized meal for every part of the day, untill i started eating DOUBLE of what i regularly ate. I put on 6kg, weight around my love handles and stomach. I try to look my best at all times, and I have now realized that this weight I was putting on was from overeating and eating when I wasn't even hungry, just when food was there. I was addicted to Mcdonalds for about 5 months, every time I drove past I had to get something from there. I was eating it twice a day. I broke away from that and now haven't eaten Mcdonalds in 2 weeks :) so I am proud of that. However, the weight is still on me. I have recently been watching a lot of pro-ana videos and researching this topic a lot. I have been eating a lot less than normal for about a month and a half maybe 2 months, and i have lost 5-7kg. I have been starting to exercise as I never used to and thought it could help me in my weight loss journey. I am now aiming to walk/run 2.2km a day, not much but still its something. My long term goals are to lose weight, be able to wear tight clothes, bikinis, etc without fat hanging out and without being embarrassed when my boyfriend touches or kisses my body. My family calls me fat and points out all of my flaws, which doesn't really help at all. I have read up on diets such as the ABC diet, 2468 etc, and may do them in the future but now I am just sticking to my liquids only fast. Today I have had 2 cuppa soups, 2 cups of noodle soup, and 1 up and go (thick low cal milk drink) so my calorie intake for today was under 500, I have had some slight hunger pains but I have tried not to think about food and to occupy my mind with other things. I am also thinking of putting up photos & maybe some videos of my progress, to possibly inspire others and also to remind myself that I shouldn't give up because I am doing well. Anyway I should be getting some sleep now because I have a busy day tomorrow and I'm going to need all the sleep I can get considering I'm not eating solids. I'll post some photos of me tomorrow along with how much I weight and the date, Goodnight x